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I'd say for the pass month or so i just really haven't been feeling like myself. i cant quite pin point it but Ive gone a few days where i didn't eat...a few nights of restless sleep. i don't know what to call it but i don't really like it. i kind of have an idea on what it is....but id rather not speak on it right now.

I do know for a fact that my job has part to do with this. See for us "peak season" doesn't start until usually Nov/Dec but since July its felt like we're already in it. and since one of the top clerks is out on "new mommy" leave a whole lot of pressure has been put on me to take up the slack since i guess i can consider myself the second best.

i went from doing maybe 10 different jobs everyday to now doing 30. and the shit that just gets me is that once i start doing one job i hear my name being called for something else "trab! we got this over here for you!" "trab! got some wet wets for you!"...BTW...wet wets = wet or leaking packages.

Added on to that a whole heap of pressure is on me at around 10 minutes before the drivers head out which is usually about the time we're finishing up unloading the trailers, getting the last few packages corrected if they have problems etc etc. but it always seems....around that time...while I'm in my work area these dumb ass co-workers bring me a push cart full of packages that are either busted all open, a lil wet...leaking...etc etc.

Now the kicker to all of this is...they expect me...one person...to get all this shit done...all the while possibly being pulled away from it to do something else....or another driver or supervisor bringing me a package that needs an address correction....ALL before 9am.....

Cmon man....that shit has been weighing heavy on me basically since this girl went on leave. everything falls on me. but.....its like i been telling myself. they said they gave me all of this b/c I'm a hard worker...depenable....etc etc which yeah i am.

But i keep hearing "yeah we gotta hire somebody else for this and that" to take some of the pressure off me. but yet ion see no action. when you got damn near 20 packages being left behind almost everyday..some being next day airs (those HAVE to go out the same day no matter what)....then we got a problem.

Its like a blessing and a curse....the more you know...the more they demand from you...which is why sometimes i wish i didn't know as much as i do....then i think about the consequences....maybe i wouldn't be making as much as i do right now....damn shol wouldn't have the rank i do right now...and damn shol wouldn't be getting the hours.

But hey...all of this comes with the territory so i cant even complain (contradicting to all the shit i just typed out huh?). as folks within the company been telling me...stick with it cuz it'll all pay off in the end. we'll see.....