its been pretty damn boring actually. i really don't have anything to report that's even half way worth while to talk about. ehh....oh yeah it rained. that's pretty exciting on account we ain't got none in the past few weeks. hmmm what else.....well we getting those tax rebates, even tho they going by the last two digits of ya SSN to determine when you get yours, cant complain about getting free money (that's if you filed last year and made only so much)
oh yeah i seem to be getting better at the whole are of making .gifs too....you know those lil....yeah you know those things. and i finally figured out how to add animated text to em too. so here's two i made a few days ago
but yeah.....uhhh.....maybe ill have some more exciting news this weekend..HOPEFULLY
so i thought i was gonna end that entry right there until oh....about an hour or so ago. i was watching "i think i love my wife" and heard a song that went along something of the lines "one monkey don't stop the show" so i hopped up real quick and got on imeem to look em up while they were still fresh in my head. turns out its by the roots called "the seed 2.0" pretty dope song, although its probably been out for a while, I'm really digging it. and also i been hearing this gnarls barkly song at the end of most shows on MTV. and its been catching my ear so i decided to look that up as well. found quite a few songs from the upcoming album i guess. "going on" "run" "who's gonna save my soul" and "a little better" all which I'm really digging.
which kinda pushed me into a new gene of music i never really gave a listen to before which is neo-soul. so probably later on today ima go back and look up a play list of the stuff and give it a listen. think its something i might just like........
so yeah, i saw this thread on another site last week. some dude and his friends took pics and he posted em. well one dude had on a retro tee i guess you can call it that stated "me and you yo mama and yo cousin too"
yeah...i WANT THAT DAMN SHIRT, so to anybody that reads my blogs, and you happen to be into t-shirts like that or if you come across a site that has it, it would be a nice gesture if you could nicely pass me the link to it.
oh yeah....i guess GTA IV comes out today....and fuck am i heated. i watched some leaked game play footage and some dude was playing it live on some site. i literally wanted to kick this monitor against the wall b/c it looked so damn lovely. this will be the first time I've missed the drop of the newest installment of the game. ah well ima grind to get the damn system and go cop the shit, or hopefully this girl will give me hers since she doesn't play it hardly. either way pray for me!
so let me start this off by taking an excerpt from an N.W.A song "Expressin' ain't their subject Because they like to follow The words, the style, the trend, The records I spin. Again and again and again Yo, you on the other end."
Now that little verse right there really applies to a good 90% of these here Internets. as long as I've been up on here on the Internet its alot of shit i don't get about these community sites. i ain't gonna name any off b/c that ain't important. but the folks up on them for the most part seem to be ass backwards 99.9% of the time. its kinda like the Internet is some sort of mind controlling machine and has just brain washed some folks into believe that they're god almighty. lost touch with reality so to say. feel its some type of achievement to obtain some type of status on the net and run with it.
from hosting pics of random females/males that they probably wont ever meet to online stalking a person that could give two shits about you to letting the shit get to you so much and so deep that you feel the need to damn near threaten someone who stays states away from you some type of bodily harm. i guess folks really cant do for themselves anymore. a real monkey see monkey do atmosphere. one person does something and see that person getting praise for it, then the cycle of followers begins with it. then the "jockin" and "bitin" comes into play when in fact those same people were playing that role in the first place. nothing but walking, breathing contradictions and a shitload of IRONYYYYYY
cockiness, assholeism, dumbassness,niggadom...just a few words to describe what goes on, on this thing. think they know it all, think they can tell it all, think that they done SEEN it all. but you know that they say, "the one with the biggest mouth usually is the dumbest one in the room". they talk about this and talk about that, over exaggerate shit, and can never L.I.G anything.
now don't take this as a rant b/c i ain't the type to let shit really get to me b/c well, it takes alot to get up under my skin like that, I'm just giving my opinion on my observations that Ive observed, but really, some folks need to BAFK (back away from the keyboard) and take a deep breath and reach up and grab that thing called reality b/c if you really act like you do on the computer then god bless your heart on how you must act offline b/c i srsly wonder about folks sometimes.
this probably ain't gonna be that long, just something i wanted to share with my good folks that take the time out to read my blogs and whatnot.
but anyway...for about the past week i been on the job hunt tryna find something to replace the shit that I'm doing now but it seems like for some reason down here alot of the jobs got some kinda "freeze" on em where they ain't hiring anybody. so on top of that i been getting pressured to start selling more b/c the thing with my job is that is yeen selling like they want you to or you ain't meeting they "quota" then they'll make you resign with the quickness and i got a feeling that's what I'm on the verge of. so i kinda been stressing over it wondering what to do cuz i cant help it if these folks don't wanna buy into new service right then and there.
but i guess somebody was looking out for me b/c my cousin up in Maryland called me about an hour ago and passed me some info about a place that i previously applied to but didn't hear anything back from. she got a friend that's a manager over there and told me to call em up, ask to speak to someone in human resources. say i referred by her friend and said she'd look out for me. you have no idea how happy i was when i got off the phone with her.....just when you think shit couldn't get any worse....that sliver lining comes.....
So as i arose this morning, and got into preparation for church. i grab my towel and drawls and a fresh wife beater and headed to the bathroom. hoped in the shower, water feeling just like a shower you would take in a hotel room bathroom, GOOD AS HELL!!!!. brushed my teef's, mouth washed, alladat good hygiene shit. went and started getting dress.
and oh yes i was dripped out in rocawear from head to toe, matching of course with a fresh pair of all white forces, with my relic watch shining brighter than that big ball of fire in the sky we call the sun. looking better than a candy coated slab str8 outta the great state of Texas coming down swanging side to side with that diamond in the back, sunroof top, diggin in the scene with a gangsta lean ya dig!!!!!
so as a last touch i head to my bathroom and proceed to take my bottle of burberry cologne. but i guess the sleep still had ahold of me so i messed around and thru the shit like a pitcher at the first throw of the ball game and damn near thought i broke it but thx to the man above i didn't, but now it wont spray.....thxalotburdines, no more smelling like a million bucks
but luckily i had my very nice bottle of ushers self entitled cologne called well "USHER". so i took that out, popped the top off it and sprayed it about twice. now during this who process......
WHY IN THE SHIT DID I FEEL LIKE I WAS IN A FUCKING COMMERCIAL FOR THIS NIGGAS SHIT AND U SWEAR TO GOD I HEARD "LOVE IN THIS CLUB" PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND AS I WAS SPRAYING IT ON ME
OK so i usually don't blog this early....its usually late at night before i hit the sack but i had to get this one out while its still fresh in my mind
so anyway....early this morning i was watching this DOC. on HBO called "The Greatest Silence: The Rape In The Congo" it was about how 10's of thousands of woman and children were raped and killed back from '94 damn near to the present day, even tho it aired back in 2004. but man that shit was so sad. they interviewed woman who were raped by 5,10,15 soldiers at one time. had guns and tree branches ran up inside them and did all types of damage and how the aids rate just sky rocketed b/c of it. and it wasn't even woman who were subjected to it. they interviewed one child who was 4 yrs old......4 fucking years old and was raped by a solider yo. some fucking sick twisted shit. they had sex slave camps full of woman and children.....even said when a woman got pregnant they would have children jump on her stomach to force her to abort.....sorry to go into such graphics but mannnnnnthat's just sad man.
then they interviewed actual soldiers who go around raping woman and asked em why they did it. one group of em talked about some magic potion shit that makes em do it and they doing it to help beat the enemy....whatever that is. but that's some fucked up shit yo. damn near brought a tear to my eyes a few times while watching it. i don't know why no one wont step in and try to help or do something but like one lady said "most of them don't want to help b/c they feel its not their problem" and i guess until those woman and children that were affected by it speak up. shit like that is just gonna be left in the dark.......
so last night i had like the weirdest dream. it felt like a damn proactive commercial but instead of it being Jessica Simpson or p.diddy, it was some Arab dude with a rick ross bread. dude was talking about how he first started to grow it out and someone showed me a picture "of a big black guy with a face chain of his self with a bread just like his" then he wanted to grow his out like rick ross but couldn't. so i guess this dude started using proactive for whatever reason and then just like on the commericals, dude started using the shit and was on some "now my beard grows more than ever, i have no more razor bumps when i shave"....all types of shit. and in the end....him and rick ross did a cameo appearance at some high school gym....lmfao
man....i really gotta stop eating before i go to sleep. but in other news....I'm kinda mad I'm starting to like this song.....gahdamn timbo and his head nodding beats
Monday, April 7, 2008 @ Just Can't Get It Right Today
ehhh...yeah the title pretty much speaks for itself. had some bad storms roll thru last night and the shits kept me up basically from the time they started at 10:30 last night all the way til about 5:30 this morning. so on top of only getting about 2 hrs of sleep i had to get right back up and go to work, took me about 5 red bulls and 2 bag of skittles to keep me up. now i got a bad ass headache .
and to add insult to injury...back in Feb. i brought a new 10MP HP digital camera on eBay. but turns out i kinda got GOT for it. i spend the better part of Feb. and March in constant back and forth emails with the chick i brought it from but only filled with false promises. so i set up a claim for it with eBay and pay pal. and after the close date on it last month i escalated it.
so to end it on a good note i got an email from pay pal that they judged in my favor and are gonna award me the money back to my account which i should see sometime this week. so thank god for that but ehh.....over all....
hopefully tomorrow will be a better day i hope......
Sunday, April 6, 2008 @ Early One Sunday Morning....
well yeah...its about 2:30 in the am and before i hit the sack i thought id type up a quick blog. so uhhh this one is something that kinda reflects off a previous entry but maybe some of y'all can share yours with me. and that is, if you got a certain song that you can just play over and over everyday and listen to it without never getting sick of it. maybe it brings you happiness. maybe it brings you pain. but for whatever reason its a song that you can just relate to in some form or fashion.
well for me it'd be "Night Shift" by The Commodores. i guess i sort of grew up with it b/c i remember riding with my mama at like 4 and 5 in the am back up to our other house in the city and i would hear them playing this on the oldies and goldies radio station and i don't know why but it just gave me chills but good chills. and now more so since my grandparents and aunt have passed on, at one point i couldn't listen to it b/c i would literally have to hold back tears but it brought up old memories of them, but now Ive had the song on repeat for the past week str8. here at home, in the car, on the ipod, ERRYWHERE lol.
but i don't know....i can just really relate to the words of the song even if its an ode to Marvin Gaye and Jackie Wilson, but in actuality, it really reminds me of my mama, mostly b.c she goes to work at like 4 in the morning so i consider her working the night shift. but yeah, if anybody happens to read this entry feel free to share....i already know about jocey's but if anybody else shares the same....
oh yeah, i know i got the song down below in another blog entry but here's the video if you've never seen it....
but other than that...from a thread my homie brooke made earlier about dreams i was wondering if anybody else ever experienced this. and that is the feeling like when you first wake up...feeling like you cant move...like theres a heavy weight on your back holding you down but yet your not in any pain what so ever, you cant move, you cant speak, but your aware whats going on around you. i remember waking up like that a few months ago and really didn't think anything of it so i went back to sleep and woke up later on a s normal but i remember hearing somewhere that some people think it has something to do with evil spirits around you....like a witch or something that has put a spell on you.
ionno, ion really believe in all that bullshit but its a really strange feeling if you've ever gon thru it but ima gon head and end this right here and head to bed, gotta get up for church in the morning
Tuesday, April 1, 2008 @ something that made some sense to me......
well today is Monday, thought it was just gonna be another Busy Bullshit Boring day....well it was up til about 4 o clock while i was in the kitchen fixing me a plate to eat when my mama said my aunt invited us over to her house to eat b/c we had folk in town from Denver that were leaving in the morning, so yeah i wrapped that plate of food up real quick....popped it in the fridge, and went and looked for something to wear (yeah i gotta show up clean no matter where i go, its kinda a habit)
but anyway....we got over there, was suppose to start at 5 but the folk from Denverdidn't get there until sometime close to 7 but it was all good, black folks ain't never on time anyway. we said graced and got to grubbing, i know i fuckingtoh that cabbage and cornbread up!. but yeah afterwards we was all just sitting around shooting the breeze, bullshitting, etc etc, the older ladies were in the living room watching the baseball game and shit, the younger dudes was in my cousin room playing the 360, the younger girl's was out in the uhhh enclosed gazebo or whatever you call it in the jacuzzi and us older dudes and my uncle and cousins was outside talking shit.
cars, wimminz, more cars, etc etc. real fucking good times, and plus i had that liquor in my cup so it was REAL good lol.
but the main point of this blog was something my aunt and nem was talking about that caught my attention. and that was the subject on jobs and stuff, how down here in Miami that in the job market, blacks wont never move up just b/c they don't want more work, but the Cubans who just came over here on a tire will take that upper management position in a heartbeat with no kinda education or experience. and then the blacks complain that they getting all the good jobs,
well yeah they are but why you sitting there complaining, you didn't wanna take the step up so your now stuck in the same rotation now talking out the side of ya neck. all i got to say is "if you gonna talk about it, be about it"
but yeah imagon head and cut this short, finish vibe'n to my music and probably edit a few pics i took tonight in photoshop.....yessuh!!!!
What can i say? 22, negro, FL bored and raised, part time photographer, part time
graphic designer....well used to be, part time drunk, full time UPS clerk, and a whole bunch of other boring
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