Wednesday, December 31, 2008 @ Greatttttttttttttttttttt Day
Well, made it another year, made it to another birthday, 23 yrs of age as of 12 midnight but yes i know its now after 5 lol, i don't know why I'm up, but i am and now here i am. Usually today i would treat just like any other day b/c i don't know......alot of factors went into it but i wont get into that right now, but today i feel is different. I'm feeling extra happy, and hell i should be, I'm alive for one to even see this day, even tho i gotta go to work for a few hrs I'm blessed to even have a job right now with the way things are going right now. AND, i got me 3 celebratory bottles to bring the new year in justttttttttttttt right lol, anybody wanna toast up with me?. Oh and for once i actually FEEL older lol.
But back tracking for a lil bit, this year i can say has been so so, had the good and bad times. good times being, i landed my current job that i love....sometimes lol, got into my newest hobby of photography and got my first DSLR camera...well first and second as well.
The bad would be the lost of my uncle, really hit me out the blue b/c i t just happened all of a sudden. and with that i had to over come one of my biggest fears and that is death,and i must say i have a new understanding for it. i just gotta remember what my uncle tole me when my grandma passed...."we cry when they come into world and celebrate when they leave"
I can also say that this past year.....well for some reason i can only remember up to Junelmao but i can say i have met some cool ass people so instead of just summing em up i thought id make a lil list:
Judy - my Asian sensation..lol we clicked since day one, glad to have you as a good friend and wish you all the best in 2009.
Liz - yeah we fell off at one point and time but I'm glad we're back at it, your one cool ass chick...odd at times but cool.
Bee - what can i say? feels like we been thru it like Ike and Tina, but we're still pushing on, like I've told you plenty of times, i ain't going anywhere no time soon so yeen never gotta worry.
Naki - "eye of an eagle" lol man that shall be engraved in my head forever, and only pretty much one word can sum you up "real", i wanna thank you for all the kind words on my work and ill be sure to bring you more in 2009
Amber - we never really talked much but you're one pretty chocolate lady lol, still ain't get my shout out! but i did get one in your one entry "3:05 am" haha, happy new years babes.
Dav - man you one cool ass laid back brothalol, kinda reminds me of myself in some ways, hard worker, determined, alladat good shit lol. i hope the best for you going into '09, i already know its gonna be big things.
Josh - another cool ass dude, i really need to go over to ya school and sign up for some classes cuz the stories you told me are just crazy man lol..
Noey - brang yo ass back home to Miami, that is all lol
Lena - love ya like a sis, cool ass chick, we'll kick it one of these days. dont change a thing
Paris - My lil sis, had well more than enough of our share of ups and downs but we stuck thru em all, and i love ya for that. we some serious odd balls but i guess that's why we get together so well lol. happy new years sis, make it a good one will ya?
I think i got everybody but if not i do apologize, that was really just off the top of my head lol but do know i love y'all and wish everybody the best in '09
But ima cut this short right here, gotta go start getting ready for work, come back home and start the celebration.
So I'm sitting here listening to some old gym class hero's (paper cut chronicles & as cruel as school children) and I'm listening to one song in particular....viva la white girl. not really anything to do with the song itself but the song brings back some memories of someone close to me. she actually first put me up on these cats a few yrs back and i didn't really get into em at first but then i got hooked and i can recall a few times us just sitting on the phone vibing to a few tracks from em.
But anyway it just reminds me of the good times me and her used to have, how close we were, just like brother and sister. we had our ups and downs....way more than enough of em but some how it just feels like we kinda drifted apart from each other, and things just don't seem the same between us like the way they used to be. i mean i already know what I've done and we've talked about it plenty of times, but meh, i guess you can say i miss those "good ole" days we used to share.
I don't know tho, its like with me i HATE feeling like I'm losing contact with someone, even if we don't talk as much i try my best to at least KIT some way, some how. but when i feel it getting to that point i guess i tend to over react making it worse on myself, not the best judgement either on my behalf.
But anyway, she's someone i hold dear to me for the simple fact that all we've been thru and she's been thru herself she's remained the same and strong as ever so i gotta tip my hat off to her for that.
Welp, i hope erryone'sChristmas holiday was a happy and joyful one, got everything you wanted but if you didn't then there's always next year, or even ya birthday but like my girl Naki said, it ain't just about getting and giving presents but more so the thought behind em.
And with that said i was kinda shocked at what i did receive this year, even tho i kept telling folks i really didn't want anything b/c i got my present weeks ago already but i ended up getting the first 5 seasons of family guy as well as the complete series of HBO's The Wire on DVD. i told myself that if i did end up getting one of those i would go back and get the other one myself but hey, i cant be mad at all from getting BOTH.
My moms....well her gift was pretty much her new HDTV and surround sound system as well as the new stand she got for it just so it could all match...all black lol. i also got her a new stereo radio for work so her work day could go by just a lil bit more easier. but all in all it was a good Christmas this year, ill admit i did have my moments where i was feeling a lil down but it all worked out for the best.
Now I'm just looking forward to one more important day.....my birthday.....which is in 5 more days. and speaking of my birthday, i need to hit up the liquor store today to you know, get my celebratory bottle early lol. just one problem....ion really know what to get, and i know i got some drinkers who come by my blog so if and when y'all ready this, help a brotha out. I'm thinking grey goose, but patron ain't sounding so bad either so let me know something!.
That's about it for now, ill be back with my birthday/year end wrap up
I swear don't a day go by where i DON'T see a cop car patrolling around my neighborhood, or a a chopper flying over, not saying my area that damn bad, but cmon, its 2 days til Christmas, the hell is yawls holiday cheer?!.
So i went up to my mama's job to drop off a letter for her that came in the mail she needed, and she told me this dude named David wanted to meet me since she told him i was into photography and he was too, i was expecting maybe somebody a lil older than me and probably my skin color or Cuban, but dude had to be at least in his 60s and white lol. but soon as i walked into his office i was met by wall to wall of shots he took, mostly of animals and nature but his shots where dope as fuck. he said he uses a Nikon D80 but he's pretty seasoned in the game.
gave me a few tips and stuff and i was just getting to the point to where i was wondering what do i do next since i got this new camera. i think ima do what he said and go to the zoo and take some pics, i might even go across the bridge over to jungle island and get some in there too.
I think i done found some inspiration again to keep it going just a lil bit longer to see what i can come up with and how far i can go with this....word
I don't mean to be the Grinch who stole Christmas, don't mean to bring others down with my presence. its just this time of year, almost every year since '01 (grandma passed) and ever since then, thanksgiving and Christmas are just regular days of the week to me.
i really don't mean to let my actions affect others so that's why i tend to just keep to myself for the most part damn near til my bday. the holidays just ain't the same around my neck of the woods so Ive just become numb to all the things that surround it.
I know there's plenty of other folks who feel the exact same way as me, but i don't know, i try to get into the spirit but sometimes it seems to no avail. shit sucks too, especially when i see that my mama is noticing it, and since its basically just me and her now...well plus my cousin, i feel i gotta be there for her ya know?
its suppose to be the most wonderful time of the year right? well it sholdoesn't feel like it to me.
Well I'm feeling much better today and thx to a good friend of mines, taco bell's fully loaded nachos is on the dinner menu for later on today. finally getting my appetite back thank god.
Other than that, i had no idea putting together an entertainment center would be so hard....kinda. well it didn't take me no more than maybe 2 hrs tops and since i never go by the instruction manual I'm surprised i got all the components right on the money the first time around, but ill let the pics explain the set up below
Before:
And After:
And see this lil thing here?
hell ionno even know wtf it is, all i know is i connect my phone to it and i can stream my songs thru the speakers lol. and man when i say that shit is loud....it really feels like the speakers in my car, or being in a movie theater. like right now i just got done running thru it with my mama, she watching the basketball game and i left it on, i keep hearing something knocking, thinking somebody playing some music, turns out its the system thumping, mannnnnn 1000 watts FTW!
And this thing here?
Just like an wireless player you can put in any other room and hear the radio or your music player from the surround sound system it, i think ima put it in my mama room if it ain't too far away from it.
But say man, you ever been out somewhere driving and been on the phone with someone....tryna multi task and did some stupid shit you laughed ya ass off about later on? well i messed around and was at Popeye's, on the phone, the girl gave me my food and drink, forgot i put the phone in my lap, put the drink up to my mouth and spoke into the drink like it was my damn phone, i couldn't help but laugh my ass off at myself about it lol.
But you know what really grinds my gears? when folks get called a certain name (dumb ass, fucking idiot, etc etc) and they feel the need to walk around and let every single person know what happened to em, i mean yeah its messed whoever it was called you that but i mean come on, it ain't breaking news or some shit. if it was me, id just shake that shit off and keep it moving, ain't some shit that would make me consider quitting my damn job over, cmonhomgurl....grow some meat flaps.
That's about it for now, if ion post anything else before Christmas Eve, just wanna wish errybody and they're folks and happy and safe holiday.
This work week i mean. Starting at 1 and 2 in the morning and still getting off at the regular time, shit has been painful...literally. and to add to it all, Ive been battling this cold or whatever i got/had this past week too. Kinda hurt my back yesterday lifting a package, and when i say i was in some pain....i was in some pain.
Head been hurting the past 3 days, stomach was hurting yesterday, and whatever i got was srsly fucking with me, one minute id feel like i was about to pass out, like...i really felt my vision dimming, mouth was dry as hell, all of thee above. but the weird part is, just like if feel like that for an hour or so. when i come home id get cold as fuck, so cold i start shaking and shit and clacking my teeth. man i don't know whats going on but i think its all finally starting to subside.
just glad we got a 3 day work week next week, but we fucking starting at 12:30 Sunday night....mannnnn i hope I'm feeling better by then. that's why i ain't doing shit this weekend. not a damn thing but laying up in bed and catching up on all the sleep i missed so far.
Why does it seem like at least once a day, Almost EVERYDAY, no matter how good of a mood i may be in, how much im just vibing, something comes along and just shuts all of that down. shit its getting kind of old if you ask me. but myabe its partly my fault b/c sometimes i ask for it but then again, sometimes it just finds me, but all in all i wish it would just fuck off on somedays and leave me be.
But fuck all that right now, i aint fixing to let it stop the vibe i got right now, b/c well....santa came a little early for me this year and as many of you know, yall probably already know what im talking about, but for those who dont, just check the pics below.
My latest and greatest investment, aint even tested it yet but its about to be ran thru fully in a minute (no pun) but yeah, shit is way smaller than the model i got now and much lighter. im pretty much satisfied technology wise for the time being, but i aint gonna hold myself to that. so just be on the look out for some picture entries and let me know what yall think.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008 @ Decisions....Decisions
Got a headache out this world man, gotta start drinking more water...more than i already am anyway.
But i ended up going to best buy with moms to price some HDTV shes looking to get sometime this week, she been looking at this song 40 inch almost everyday on the pc for the past week and a half, finally got into the store and our got damn 37 inch looks bigger than that damn thing, ionno, it could have just been b/c of the other TVs around it, but i think i done talked her into getting an 46 inch of the same brand for about 600-800 more. shes was concerned about the width of it since it did seem pretty long but that just ended a few minutes ago and seems like it'll work. Other than that seems like she wants to get a new surround sound system for it, the right HDMI cables so it'll broadcast in high def for her, and probably a new stand for it if need be. i never knew getting a new TV would be so much got damn trouble
But while we were down there i took a stroll down the DVD section....and felt like a kid in a candy store, now i know my Xmas present is already on its way and i said i really ain't want anything else......but now.....i want the complete 5 seasons of family guy and/OR HBO's The Wire. I'll probably end up getting the family guy episodes myself but that got damn The Wire pack is over fucking 200....got damn, i think ima make my cousins and em get it for me instead, but my mama on the other hand wants the complete James bond movie collection which they had one more left but it was going for over 200 as well, but ima still do it for her b/c well, I'm a good son.
But yeah, i did notice something funny, well you'll see the pic below....ionno what dude was doing but ......
either he was selling em or doing a whole heap of picture taking. but yeah just me rambling off at the mouth again I'm fixing to hit the sheets, i got a headache the size of Monique and it ain't pretty either
So this past Thursday, id say maybe around 4 or 5 i start to hear a chopper flying around the area for a good 30-45 minutes, really didn't think much of it since its really nothing new around here, went to the mailbox about 10 minutes afterwards and it sounded like it landed on the park up the street from me which led me to believe something done happened and they probably air lifted somebody to the hospital. later on that evening i went out and as i pulled up to a 4-way intersection i saw a Spanish news van leaving the area as well, which then made me think....wtf done happened? didn't catch the news that night to see what went down tho.
went to the barbershop yesterday morning after i got off work, and the first thing he asked me was did i hear about what happened yesterday. i said "nah what happened?" he told me two people got shot and killed over on the street my cousin lives on, said it was probably drug related, i wasn't in shock but i was like damn, its been a good lil minute since its been any type of shooting around here.
but later on that day my cousin comes down and tells us she knows one of the dudes that got killed....well here's where it gets kinda confusing, from how I'm hearing it, it sounds like 6 people total got killed, 4 in some type of boarding house where they deal drugs and 2 i guess in some type of altercation that went down, but the dude she knew, i guess he got killed early Friday morning, said some dudes followed him home from the club, robbed him and shot him 5 times.
but here's what kinda got to me, she said he was into drugs so I'm pretty sure that played a part in it too but also said he drove a BMW, don't know what model or year but i haven't really seen too many other BMW's around here besides my mom's and another one up the street.
it just hit close to home b/c its like, it could have been anybody else and the way I've been feeling over the past year and a half, you just don't feel safe anymore, i always thought this was a pretty decent area I'm in, i know we got the bad seeds but pretty much good. but for something like this to happen, its kinda like a reality check that shit is real out there.
So real that i have been thinking about getting some "protection" myself, along with the right paperwork to carry that "protection" around. i lost my peace of mind a long time ago and i really need it back....
Thursday, December 11, 2008 @ Friday Thoughts 12/12
Well its another Friday, made it thru another hellish work week, and earned a few more dollars. dollars that went to another investment, a brand new camera to get my feet just a little bit more wet in the world of photography. should get it sometime next week, that's why i love working for UPS, anything i order usually ships thru them and i can pick it up while I'm still on the job instead of waiting for the driver to deliver it.
These spicy nacho Doritos are pretty damn good
In other news, i had a lil talk with a good close friend of mines yesterday, i wont go off into details b/c its between me and her but it just felt like we fell off a huge cliff, she landed on a ledge below while i fell flat on my face at the very bottom. she's someone who's real special to me and id hate to lose her over something so small. we both had our parts in what happened but I'm just tryna make a change for the better and get the old "us" back....when we were closer than flies on dog shit. it'll be a work in progress but if she's willing to be on my team then ill take us to the championship (fuck that probably sounded corny as hell, dah well)
I don't see what all the hype is over this 5 gum is about
But moving on, as usual I'm still in picture mode so you already know what's coming next.just a few "randoms"
Got my next two titles on the way from game fly. Assassins Creed and Sonic: Unleashed. ion think ima even play em until we get this HDTV next week tho, just for the experience of it
so yeah, still on this old school tip, so you should have seen this coming as well. sometimes i really think I'm an old person trapped inside a young persons body, who else do you know that listens to music like this besides your parents and grandparents and aunts and uncles? some of em i can relate to, some bring back memories, some just choke me up, and some the average person wouldn't even care for unless they're favorite rapper used a sample from it in a song, but that's just me.BTW...i know i played this in another entry, but this time its for dedication purposesshe'll know when she hears it.
Is what you get. No need to fake, front, beat around the bush, be subtle about it. I'm getting to a point in my life where I'm finally realizing that i don't give a fuck, while most other folks had that mentality from birth.
It seems this whole Mr. Nice Guy role just don't get you anywhere in this day and time. really puts a magnifying glass over the phrase "taking your kindness for weakness" b/c that's exactly what will happen. I never thought i would try and change myself just to conform to what seems to be the regular routine of society and id definitely hate for it to affect friendships with the people Ive made strong bonds with.
But I'm just really starting to look at shit awhole lot differently now. Sort of standing from the outside looking in. In a way i feel like a weight is being lifted off of me but in the same sense i don't want this to be a curse. Gotta find a way to balance it out.
I wouldn't call this a new me, or a new "personality" Just simply....what you see is what you get
The feeling of always giving a fuck when i really shouldn't The way of letting shit get under my skin when i can easily brush it off "whatever, ya point is? uh huh, you just hating, opinions...they're like assholes, errybody got one" screw all the excuses and cliche predictable responses.
The more you claim to not care, the more obvious you're making it that you do. Why even bother sometimes?
Why even try? Why even try....
You just so happen to turn the other cheek on em, but in turn they go harder on it, almost backing you into a corner until you're forced to make a decision....flight or fight? red pill or blue pill? left or right? up or down? back or forth? well you cant go back any further, ya heels already hitting that wall.
Either way they're only after one thing, and that's satisfaction and they'll get it one way or another at almost any cost just as a form of an ego boost i guess, kinda like on Pokemon where after so many fights they would evolve into a bigger and stronger creature, same concept. It just amazes me sometimes that folks can be so naive to anything and everything.
hypocritical, habitual, wanna be smooth criminals.....aiming right at you and hollering "pew pew"
lol its just amazing.....so amazing.
Don't worry about it, don't stress it, don't give it a second thought, yadayadayada, kill it If ignorance is bliss, then why do we seek knowledge? Knowledge that you claim you have yet contradictingya self with you're actions.
Cut the act man, curtain fall after this Fuck it, I'm done for now
Either that or i really gotta shake this shit off.....
Saturday, December 6, 2008 @ Late 80's Early 90s Anyone?
Woke up this morning, headache THIS big......and its still lingering around, but due to that i don't really feel like doing shit today, plus its looking pretty rainy outside, which it better not seeing as i just gave the whip a nice bath yesterday.
Ima probably just go in the TV room....lay out on the couch and watch all these college football games today.
But i don't know what triggered this whole thing, no wait....i remember, i was watching something on TV and heard that bobby brown song from ghost busters. ain't heard that joint in a long ass time. but i went on ahead and looked it up on YouTube, laughed my ass off at the video then downloaded the song o frost wire......but while i was at it, i started falling off into other songs of the same genre.
Bobby Brown, Johnny Gill, Babyface & Deele, Soul II Soul, just to name a few and got a whole heap of songs from em, i had some of they joints on here before (before i was forced to do a full system restore smh) but getting em back is putting me back on that smooth R&B tip again...i wonder how long its gonna last....
Friday, December 5, 2008 @ Yeen Shit (You're Not Shit)
OK, I'm usually not the type to stress over something small and simple when when that small and simple thing starts to grow into a bigger and bigger problem then it becomes harder and harder to just ignore it.
iight so let me set the scene, me and this chick work together in the same area doing the same thing everyday, we both scan, correct addresses on packages that come down the belt with blank labels from the trailers. So usually we get slammed with a shitload of packages take be standing like a mile high. now we'd both be scanning em and whatever, and when we get too many of em that are done piled up, she'll go off and start stacking em onto carts to they can be moved to they're correct belt section.
But anyway, my thing is, she herself said it needs to be at least 2 people doing what we do at all times, so why are you going off doing that which i understand they need to be moved so we'll have more room for more packages but bitch you take forever taking the shit, and when somebody else comes over to do it for us, why do you feel the need to walk with them back over to where ever they taking the packages? get your short ass back over here and help finish scanning.
I really cant stand people who do shit like that, and i really think she just don't like scanning, if you don't like it go up top and sweat like a run away slave unloading inside them hot ass trailers for all i care. but don't be taking your sweet ass time doing shit and leaving the work to pile up on me. ole fuck ass. then i got a hint of her wanting to be a supervisor and done took the test and passed for it......WTF for?! so you can stand around all day and yell at me and tell me what to do? if so then you got another thing coming lil buddy.
just seems like she's taking advantage of this shit and it ain't sitting right with me at all. you ever ran into a person with the same situation?
But in other news, my supervisor told me on my next check i should see a buck increase, not bad...not bad at all...done went from 8.50 to now 11.50...all in under 6 months.
So I'm taking the same route i do every morning home from work....coming around the bend and up ahead of me i see someone step out into the middle of the road, i start to slow down and as i got closer i realized who it was.....bo brown aka Miami-Dade's finest smh.
i pull off to the side, roll down the window, he asks me do i know why he pulled me over, cracked head light? nah....speeding. in all honesty i was just driving along and really wasn't paying attention to anything else until he flagged me down. but i gave him all the information, then he asked me if i ever had gotten any tickets before and when i told him it was my first ticket ever, he did a double take like he was shocked lol.
but yeah he gave me a citation and gave me 3 options, go to court, pay the ticket, or do driving school. the fine is $244....smh i can kinda see why, i was clocked at 51 in a 30. if i pay the fine he said it'd be 4 points on my license as well. He said the best thing is to go to court...which he wont be there but said the judge will look at my driving record and since this is literally my first offense, he might throw the whole thing out including driving school.
i don't know tho man, i don't know why i feel so shaken up over this, and i take back everything i ever said about "it'll never happen to me". great way to start off the day eh?
What can i say? 22, negro, FL bored and raised, part time photographer, part time
graphic designer....well used to be, part time drunk, full time UPS clerk, and a whole bunch of other boring
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