so in light of the launch of the new apple iPhone 3G.....its been on my mind ever since i first heard about it, so about two weeks ago i went to a local at&t store to see about it, well actually it was about 3 days after it came out and of course they were outta stock so i went on ahead and placed an order for once.....well today guess what......
yeah it finally came in today and i must say...despite what folks have said about it, i ain't had one complaint with this thang yet thus far, shit its my first smart phone so of course i ain't gon have nothing bad to say, i ain't even explored it fully yet lol.fuck watching live TV with other similar phones, i can just hit up youtube and watch the latest shit.....got my yahoo and msn for when I'm away from the PC, Internet at my finger tips....LITERALLY lol, iTunes and ipod so i already got all my songs on it, not to mention the thousands of apps i gotta go thru to see what i like. i fucking love thins thing man...and plus i was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy over due for an upgrade.
So today was the day we buried my uncle....well put him in an mosalium, so i thought i was holding up pretty well until we all arrived at the church and was waiting to walk inside to be seated. well once they did usher us in, the choir was up singing an up lifting song, and as we walked towards the pulpit up front we had to walk by the casket to see our uncle one last time and it was a very somber moment, i was walking behind my lil cousin and as we got closer to him, i started to see him tense up, turning his head away.....I'm like damn.....this is really taking its toll on erryone b/c now we're finally realizing.....this the last time we gonna see him.during the service, one of my aunts broke down and lawd...when my cousin got up and sung "i pray that we'll all be ready" i just lost it, couldn't hold it back anymore. and from that point til we got to the cemetery i was just tearing up and opening the flood gates.....when we all walked out to get ready to head over, as i saw them loading him into the back of the hearse, i tensed up again and let it all out. as we were riding in the car with my mama and my three cousins they all kept talking....well mostly my mama, now I'm still boo hoo cryin' and what not, she steady talking, then she mimicked him and said the nick name he used to call me which was "shoobooty" and i just broke down even more. now this was my first funeral i ever attended, and it really hit me hard as HELL.when we got to the cemetery and they were loading him onto the lil lift thing so they could push him into the mosalium space, i actually didn't shed anymore tears, i was still sad as hell but i just thought of what everybody was telling me..."he's at peace now, he's in a better place, no more sickness, no more pain, he's doing just fine". so maybe that's what gave me that last lil bit of strength at the end of it, but once they were done and errybody was leaving i just stood there looking at it (where they placed him), i guess it was my final goodbye so-to-speak.but yeah, he was one of my favorite uncles, not just to me but to all my lil cousins around my age, so maybe that's why it hit us like that. but I'm tired as hell from it so ima bring this blog to a close, and just say......always tell ya kinfolk you love em b/c you just never know......
oh yeah....did i mention he went out with a lil smile on his face? yeah that kinda made it easier for me.
So, we were all over my aunt house earlier talking about arrangements for my uncles funeral and what not, when in the middle of the convo my cousin makes a comment that really caught me off guard and got me thinking now. Outta all the men who have passed on since I've been able to remember, its all been b/c of the same reason.....heart problems.my grandpa....heart attack, my other uncle....heart attack, now this uncle...heart attack. She called us (the men) of the family "ticking time bombs" and it makes alotta sense b/c I've never heard of or don't remember this kinda stuff happening to any of the women in my family.So now its like "damn, i really need to take care of myself" i wanna die at a nice ripe old age and not just drop dead all of a sudden ya know? Gotta watch what/how i eat, go to the doctor regularly, etc etc. b/c i know i still got alot of life ahead of me to live but i wanna make sure i live it right and not spend it worrying about this and that.But yeah....just a random thought that got to me.....now back to your scheduled programming.
...that my uncle is no longer with us after today.....damn man, i didn't even get to see him one last time before hand, i don't even remember the last time i did see him, probably riding by the house. but damn man.....i still wanna think this is all a dream ad ima wake up from it and errything is gonna be alright.well, it seems he passed out yesterday morning, they think he had a heart attack, but the way he passed out is what is gonna stick with me for a very long time. my aunt (his wife) and cousin said that she found him kneeled down on the edge of the bed, like in the praying position. and that's really weird b/c the last time he passed out, he was mumbling "I'm coming to see you T.J" ( his other passed brother and my uncle) so this time around, as my cousin put it, it was like maybe god whispered in his ear that it was time ya know?some real eerie deep stuff, but after that he was on life support all yesterday and last night and i guess they made the final decision this morning, b/c he was out for almost 30 minutes before they revived him so there was probably some serious brain damage.but gotdamn man.......i still cant believe he's gone.....no more seeing him riding around on that motor cycle, or hearing about them long road trips he liked to that....AND he JUST retired at the end of last month.....smh...R.I.P unlce....your finally at rest and i know your in a better place.....
So while i was out driving earlier today to get something to eat, i took notice of all the cars around me, and since my whip in the shop gettin fixed i got a lil Chevy colbolt as a rental. but as i was driving, i took notice of erry car that rode by or pulled up next to me and got to thinking. is it bad if i cant see myself below a certain type of car? or that wont settle for anything less than?.....shit was kinda eatin at me. i ain't saying all i been around are luxury cars and trucks but at least semi luxuryToyota's, ford suv's, and now a BMW. and like now I'm saving up for another car hopefully at the end of the year and i had my heart set on a charger (yeah i know errybody and they grandma got one) but i got to thinking, if i cant get that then id either go for a 300 or maybe an new model altima. and i might even shoot for another BMW if i can find one i likei guess its kinda like i aim high for myself which i know is good, but i hate riding in shit i guess that ain't so "hot" and the way shit going nowadays i know I'm grateful just to have something to get me from point A to point B. but ionno. maybe its how i was raised or something. but i know what i want and ima damn shol get it one way or another.but on another know to part two of this......you know what really grinds my gears? well its too much shit to put out there but its about 99.38499300393099 1/2% of the shit people do on the internet. now i got some tough ass skin but sometimes i sit back and watch the shit that goes on, on here and it really gives me a run for my money but i ain't the type to say anything, just let them folks self destruct on they own. sometimes i feel like I'm watching them daily soap operas that come on during the middle of the day....and that ain't kosher at all pimp.....
What can i say? 22, negro, FL bored and raised, part time photographer, part time
graphic designer....well used to be, part time drunk, full time UPS clerk, and a whole bunch of other boring
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