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iight so, you ever had a situation come up to the point where it kinda brought back a feeling of deja vu from a past experience weather it be good or bad?

Well something like that just happened to me not too long ago. basically some dude that rides around on a bike came by the house, knocked on the door and started asking my mama questions about lawn care (she let him do some work a while back and he did a shit ass job) so she basically gave him the cold shoulder and he took off.

Now most probably wouldn't think of it as a big deal, but with me, it brought back a feeling of something that happened around this same time back in '07. i think i wrote about it way back when but ill just retouch on it.

Basically i was here home alone asleep one morning, somebody comes knocking at the door, now back then id usually just let em knock until they realized nobody was home and went on about their business but this dude just kept knocking and knocking so eventually i got up and as i made my way to the living room i heard the front door being kicked, jumped back, grabbed my phone, started to peak around the corner to see what was going on and he kicks it again knocking out one of the panels on it, so i dip out and i guess he saw me run across the room so he took off on his bike and around the corner, as i made my way out the back door, and ran to a neighbors house i saw him riding off but ion think he saw me.

But the whole point I'm tryna get across here is, just that one lil situation just now just seemed to bring back all those feelings.....piece of mind....sense of security...etc etc. i mean you really don't know how folks act these days when somebody talks to em a certain way, they'll either just let it ride or might come back to prove a point. cant just put shit pass nobody nowadays, which is why my mind starts to run with hella scenarios, what if this happens, what if that happens.

which is the reason why i want some vicious ass guard dogs, the reason why i want an alarm system on this house, the reason why i wanna get a CCW license and keep a weapon in this house. only draw back on all of this is, that if its gonna happen, its gonna happen. ain't no ifs, ands, or buts about that. but that's why i keep this iron baseball bat across the bed from me.....just in case.

Its kinda funny b/c i just got done watching Gran Torino and the whole message of the movie was to stand up for yourself, i guess even if it means costing you your life.

I don't know tho, i mean this whole thing was always in the back of my mind and thought i was getting over it, but just like that.....back to reality....

-Fin

Peace