March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 January 2011 February 2011 April 2011 November 2011 January 2012 .

I don't mean to be the Grinch who stole Christmas, don't mean to bring others down with my presence. its just this time of year, almost every year since '01 (grandma passed) and ever since then, thanksgiving and Christmas are just regular days of the week to me.

i really don't mean to let my actions affect others so that's why i tend to just keep to myself for the most part damn near til my bday. the holidays just ain't the same around my neck of the woods so Ive just become numb to all the things that surround it.

I know there's plenty of other folks who feel the exact same way as me, but i don't know, i try to get into the spirit but sometimes it seems to no avail. shit sucks too, especially when i see that my mama is noticing it, and since its basically just me and her now...well plus my cousin, i feel i gotta be there for her ya know?

its suppose to be the most wonderful time of the year right?
well it shol doesn't feel like it to me.