Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ Memories Made In....
Just about full force into fall which mean the cold snaps are on the way, and even tho its not cold down here, i do feel cold inside.
i guess one reason could be is b/c around this time of year i fall into a gloomy state of self, mostly b/c i miss my grandma and her cooking, right about now she'd have that kitchen jumping like the springs on a trampoline and the icing on the cake would be her peach cobbler, one bite of that stuff would make even the most senile man crack a smile.
Second reason for this feeling i guess is b/c I'm getting to the point where id like to settle down with a young lady, but i feel like i wouldn't be up to par, and i feel myself getting to the point of where I'm like "fuck love"...ill probably be single for a long time, hopefully not the rest of my life, but it doesn't seem to be getting any better. i feel like ill bring more cons than pros into a relationship and that it'll end up being an epic PHIAL.
Maybe I'm just over analyzing it or it might just be some truth in there somewhere. but either way sometimes i just feel like whats the use of putting my heart out there on the front lines with its bound to take a shot to the head from an assassins bullet. I'm blessed to know an many people as i do to keep my sane and all of that jazz, but i guess I'm getting sick and tired of tryna find that right one, "my better half", but keep running into the wrong half's.
To be honest, id say the few folks i do know (and they know who they are) are better than some fish and grits with some hot sauce on top, and i wish they lived just a lil bit closer, some true "kick it" folks they are. but I'm just saying....I'm just looking for a little happiness, that ain't much to ask for is it?......
What can i say? 22, negro, FL bored and raised, part time photographer, part time
graphic designer....well used to be, part time drunk, full time UPS clerk, and a whole bunch of other boring
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