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You ever listen to some music and a certain song comes on that sends a shiver down your spine? maybe shed a tear from your eye? just rattle up some old memories? made you just sit there and think back on a few things in your life?

well that's the mood i kinda slipped into while listening to Luther Vandorss - dance with my father.
it just made me start to think about my dad, then led to me thinking about all the stuff that Ive been thru in my life and why i tend to bottle it up.

i don't know tho, i know its bad but its like for one...i really don't know who to open up to b/c you cant trust any and everybody and two, if and once i do open up, ill feel weird afterwards for some reason.

i guess a third reason would be that most of the stuff I've yet to tell would make the average person cry and i don't wanna burden anyone with that, but i know it ain't doing no good in holding it in too and i got YEARS and YEARS of shit built up. and after talking to a good friend, i thought about maybe going to the church with it, but then thought about it and how the church IS....maybe not....i might be a subliminal in the following Sunday's sermon smh

its really only one other person i can think of to start with and i just might do that and see how it works out b/c i got shit way back from about 5 or 6 that nobody knows about to this day but me.


but ehh....just a random thought, and honestly really don't know where else to go with this but ill figure it out....BEZ