well its Wednesday night, and its been a pretty good day, still windy and a HINT of chill in the air. the week has been good so far up until yesterday. well i know you probably just curious to know wtf is up. well me and my cousin and the rest of my usher board members went to a after wake at one of our church members homes b/c he lost his father the week before. well before we went down there, my cousin came and got me and we went up to the funeral home that's up the street from me b/c he had to go see someone. now i haven't been inside this place since my grandpa's wake back in '95. so i walked in with him...of course there weren't any bodys in view when you walk in...but theres a big lobby and then the big chapel room where they place the body for the big viewing. i didn't walk in at first b/c well....i get really un easy about stuff like that. so as we were about to leave my cousin asked me did i wanna see the body (b/c he was a former member of our church) and i gave my usual excuses on why i didn't wanna go but he finally got me to walk in and view him and when i did it just felt so......i don't even think theres a word to explain how i felt. he looked so at peace. and it reminded me so much of my grandpa when i saw his body there in the casket way back when.
it just felt so surreal knowing that I'm gonna have to go thru that one day but i guess i kinda took a step to overcoming my fear of death by viewing the body so now i suppose my next step is gonna be to actually attend an funeral.
well as far as today went....i was kinda down b/c well after going thru that yesterday at the funeral home. today while i went and go something to eat i was listening to an mp3 cd i made my mama full of gospel and old school songs and i had the commodores "night shift" on repeat b/c that song hits me in a special place and makes me shed a tear or two errytime i listen to it and well today wasn't any different. i was on my way back home and had it on damn near full blast and just thinking about my grandma and grandpa and aunt and even that person yesterday i couldn't help but shed a few tears over it. i don't know what it is about that song but it just speaks to me in a weird way. to the point where Sunday i think ima go over to the cemetery and visit my passed ones. b/c i haven't been out there since i was at least 8 or 9 AT LEAST
but i don't wanna sadden whoever reads this anymore so in some lighter news. I'm kinda back on my photo shop shit and I've been at it for the past few days so i thought maybe id share a few with y'all. i done came across something called c4d's that really give my sigs nice effects if i use em right so ill let y'all have a gander at em.
oh yeah, just in case you haven't heard that song "night shift" here it is
What can i say? 22, negro, FL bored and raised, part time photographer, part time
graphic designer....well used to be, part time drunk, full time UPS clerk, and a whole bunch of other boring
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